Monday, November 10, 2014

BREAKING FREE


"In the past, other people shamed you and said bad things to you. You were shamed much more than any other people. So in your land you will get two times more than other people. You will get the joy that continues forever."  Isaiah 61:7 (ERV)



LOOKING FOR DIRECTIONS

Sometimes things thought long ago buried
Come bubbling up in such a hurry
There is no way to plug up the leak
The dam is overflowing and the ship about to sink.
The tide has come in and the markings in the sand
Have been sifted away but the debris has washed ashore
Never to return back to its home.
The hole is too big to contain
Feelings come rushing in once again
Long put away, neatly, safely hidden
The suddenness of it quickly overwhelms
A heart once beating normal now swells
And threatens to overtake every inkling of common aid.
There’s a Red Sea to cross, a decision to make
Forward, backward, or maybe just stay
Consequences will surely dismay
If wrong choices are in the way.
Prayer must lead like the cloud of God
It’s not a Simon Says type of game
Holy ground requires bare feet
And a willingness to stand near the heat.
Excuses come but if God has His way
They’ll evaporate like fog on a sunny day
Moses could not keep from obeying
Nor Noah, Elijah, or Abraham
Obedience is the key to walking even on high wire beams.
Don’t look down, it’s scary there
Look up to the One who will catch all tears and fears
Sometimes things thought long ago buried
Are the very things He wants to carry.

~Marcell Warner Bridges
©5 November 2014




Earlier this evening I didn’t know what to write. I had been praying all day what to say. I asked my best friend and she said, “Don’t think about it. Just write down the first thing that comes to mind. You can change it later.” The first thing that came to mind was the word, “shame”. I decided to do a keyword search of the Bible for the word. This was the first verse that popped up and I cried:

“Instead of your shame you shall have double honor, And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double; Everlasting joy shall be theirs.” Isaiah 61:7 (NKJV)
 
Even more interesting is that this is a whole chapter of “The Good News of Salvation”. God is promising salvation to His people and a double portion to them of their inheritance because God has seen the shame that was put upon them even though they didn’t deserve it.
 
I sat stunned. Really Lord?

You see, I've been wrestling with this lately. I mean, have you ever felt pure shame over something that was not your fault? Years have gone by, you’ve carried the pain with you even though you don’t realize you are harboring it. Maybe when you think about what happened, it causes you so much heartbreak that you don’t even see the truth for what it was or is. It was not your fault no matter how many people have told you it was.

Over the years we let a scar form over it and buried it way down deep inside hoping it would just stay put and the band-aid would stay covering it. But then suddenly one day out of the blue so unexpectedly it knocks the wind out of you, it comes to mind. And it stays there. The longer you think about it, the worse you feel.

What do you do with it?
 




Suggestion…take it to the Lord in prayer. Ask Him why He is bringing this to your mind. Ask Him if you have unfinished business with it. He may not give you an answer right away, but you can either wallow in it and feel despair over it, or, you can talk with Him about it. He can and will give you the peace you are seeking.

They say time heals all wounds but time only heals wounds we allow God to heal within us.

I began to write and ask God for help. I’d like to share with you some of what God is showing me (or at least, questions I am pondering):

Why am I allowing his sin against me to be my sin? Why am I carrying a guilt and reproach when it was never mine to hold on to?

Maybe because when I finally told those closest to me they called me a liar. They said I was to blame. They said I wasn’t the Christian they thought I was and that God was disappointed in me. I decided never to tell anyone else about it.

Obviously God has other plans here. He wants His light to shine into this darkness and to reveal the truth for what it is. I'm not meant to carry this. It's not mine to be ashamed of. It's time to let it go. I am scared half to death to hit the publish button, but I firmly believe God is asking me to do this and I'm not afraid anymore. The truth sets us free.
 
“I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, My soul shall be joyful in my God; For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.  For as the earth brings forth its bud, As the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth, So the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.”  Isaiah 61:10, 11
 

My friend, has someone done something to you that caused you to believe it was all your fault? Have you believed all of these years that you were the one to blame. That it must have been something you did that made that person sin against you? I’m just going to get real with you. It’s not your fault. It’s never been your fault and it is time to take this to the Lord to heal that wound you’ve been carrying for far too long. Bringing it into the light of God’s Word is how we defeat Satan and his attacks on us. It is how we defeat the guilt and blame and the shame that we thought we deserved. God is ready to bring salvation to this part of your life. He is ready to make all things new within you. Will you, and I, let Him do that today?


All photos except for the last one are Google images. The last photo is courtesy of © Tee-Tee Barnes Photography, 2014

© Heart Thoughts, Marcie Bridges, 2014

2 comments:

  1. Marcie! I don't know how I missed this last week. I'm so sorry. I'm so proud of you for daring to be vulnerable in order to help others. Wow! Healing comes in the giving...Love you :)

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  2. Yes, it most certainly does. Thank you for sharing my posts. Love you too!

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