I walked into her room not knowing what to expect. My friend looked at me with eyes so sad and I didn’t know what to say. She couldn’t talk to me, but she tried, yet I failed at understanding what she was trying to say. I tried to read her lips but it is a skill I’ve not honed yet. I grappled with things to talk about but my mind stayed blank. Finally I understood one of her questions and was able to make some conversation. I also understood when she thanked me for coming and when she told me she loves me. Before leaving, I prayed with her but I left with my heart extremely heavy and many, many questions on my mind...
What am I doing? Why am I wasting time on....???? Why am I letting such and such thoughts dwell in my brain? I feel down and depressed about a lot of things today but most of all I realize that I suddenly just want to savor the moments I have with my family and friends. Because I realize it could be me or one of my family members in that hospital room and here but by the grace of God go I.
Yesterday my girls asked me if I miss them being little. Sometimes I do. But mostly I wish I would have cherished it more. I wish I would have taken time to really enjoy certain moments in life. I can’t get those moments back but perhaps now my eyes have been opened to the life God really wants me to live. Jesus’ mother cherished the time she had with Him. Luke 2:19, “But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.” I pray that we learn to do the same in our lives and hearts.
A MOMENT IN TIME
I just want to listen to the falling rain as it pelts against my window.
I just want to drown in a book that takes me to somewhere else.
I just want to snuggle up in a warm, cozy blanket drinking hot cocoa.
I just want to savor this moment, this quiet, this calm.
The noise around me blares against my ear drums
It squelches all thought and ponderings that could be.
I hate it for it goes on and on and there is no ignoring it
The chaos about me seems to think it is free to make havoc upon my soul.
For even in the stillest silence it is not complete.
And now I sit. Waiting. Listening. Intently.
There it is. Can you hear it? Can you feel it?
Come, join me, and listen.
Listen to the rain as it beats down upon the roof.
Read and go to a land far away.
Snuggle in a warmth that melts your heart.
Savor the moment. It won’t last forever.
- - Marcell Warner Bridges
©8, December 2009
Dear Lord, let me remember to take the time to spend with my family and my friends and to be the friend I should be. Help me to not be so consumed with my own life that I miss opportunities with those around me to be the wife, mother and friend I need to be. I love You Lord. Thank You for the life You’ve given to me and the life You’ve given me more abundantly in You. May I use it for Your glory and honor. In Jesus Name, Amen.
©Marcie Bridges, Heart Thoughts 2013
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